So as all you faithful readers of MMRRR have probably insinuated, I have a love-hate relationship with my Intro to Biology class. Love in that upon completion, I will be 4 credits and one predominantly freshman prerequisite closer to my degree. Hate in that I find it very difficult to care about the relationships between ants and trees, the mating cycles of sea urchins, or caterpillars in Canada. Hate is a strong word though, and I do find some parts of this class intriguing, so perhaps “ambivalence” is more appropriate. Regardless, I found myself in an interesting predicament in trying to prepare for this exam: literally every time I attempted to study, I started dozing off after about 15 minutes. I studied in the morning, afternoon, and evening with the same result, and wasn’t particularly sleep deprived; I even was dozing off when I attempted to study in the 20 minutes just before the exam. Thus, after finishing the exam and taking one magnanimously large deep breath, I started to wonder if dozing off was a way of my true self fighting back against learning information that will most likely be disposed of after the completion of this class, never to be seen again. A little bit of a stretch? Maybe. But this is how my brain operates these days. If being unable to study without snoozing is truly a manifestation of the true self, then this has certain connotations. Firstly, my true self can distinguish between information that’s useful and must be learned in spite of its monotony and information that is irrelevant. Up to this point I have never actually had an issue studying for exams of “useless” subjects such as calculus, which has actually proven quite useful. Apparently Intro to Biology is in the latter category. Additionally, if dozing is a manifestation of my true self’s ambivalence towards Bio, why Bio and why now? I have no idea, but this train of thought is currently consuming my existence.
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Matt,
ReplyDeleteI am a little confused on how this true self is connected with idenity?? Is what you are trying to say is that maybe you feel like you have the ability to determine what is relevant and not and that your body displays this by dozing of when attemting to study the things that you feel are "useless"?
If there was a connection with idenity, clearly this would be isolated from social surroundings but would you say that maybe, although this might be a strecth as well, that these "useless"topics to study are engrained in your brain from surroudning influences?
Gilad